I'm sorry you're feeling that this was a waste, Morgan. I believe that, if you hadn't tried, hadn't given it your all, you might have always wondered if you could have saved your marriage. Now you know you gave it your all, and then some. You can now move forward, knowing that you tried, with full confidence.
Hopefully, someday, you will look back on this time and not see it as a waste, but as a necessary moment in your journey.
((HUGS))
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9