I always feel like I'm being too critical of you, Heim. I think you do a lot of good too -- just want to see you at your best 100% of time, you know?
Appreciate the thought. Wish I had found this board a year ago. Really, really do.
Anger not a good emotion. Agree on that and I have been MUCH less angry in the last year -- heck, even my girls have commented on it. Working on interacting with her in a much more calm manner. I have, but she keeps expecting me to act like I used to. Then, on the rare occassions I do, it's like, "AHA, I'm justified in leaving." Oh, well. Not sure if I can do perfection.
Anyway, good lord, but I cuss too much. It's almost a reflex to use a naughty word. There was a great line from Deadwood, one of the characters wasn't able to cuss in front of a woman and he said something like "I don't have my full freedom of expression."
All that said, this was a good episode to illustrate that I need to keep a grip on my temper/emotions when she's trying to push my buttons and to be as serene as possible when we're talking. That's where I want to get anyway. Firm as necessary, but not rude or kissing her buttocks (though . . . oh, never mind, won't go there today).
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY