Hardly faking it anymore: Puddle's third thread

[Heimlich]

I can't speak for Puddle, but I'm far from depressed at the moment. I would love for my W to tell me she still loves me. If it's a year from now, in all honesty, I can't project out that far. It's been 6 months already. I might be done by then. Heck, I might be "done" by next month. Who knows.

I know that my marriage, for most of it, was, at least in my mind, 70 to 80% good. I liked be married and I liked being married to her. Given a choice, she'd still be the first person I'd see in the morning and the last person I see at night. That said, I've finally gotten to the point that I'm not just going to wait for her to change her mind. If she does, great. If not, well, that's too bad for her -- and to an extent, our girls. But, I'm not married in any real since and am beginning to live like that. It's definately wierd.

BD