Now I've done it...again #5

[nephartiti]

Maybe I should have followed the 48 hour rule...

I was finishing up S2's costume on the sewing machine H bought me for my birthday (not this past one, but the year before). For years I had been borrowing my mom's that was older than I. It was just one of those thoughtful gifts.

I am not good at receiving gifts and compliments. I usually respond with some sarcastic remark. If he got me flowers, I would say something like, "Are these because you thought you were in trouble?"

If he didn't get me a gift, I would feel neglected (b-days and stuff). If he did, I'd complain about the money. I remember he surprised me with a bluetooth ear piece. I couldn't just say, "Thank you. That was so thoughtful of you." I had to complain that I wasn't sure I would like it.

This is just me feeling insecure and unworthy of gifts/attention, but it comes off as just *itchy.

So, I called and left a v-mail (he didn't answer today).

"I was just finishing S2's costume, and I wanted to thank you for the sewing machine. I wanted to thank you for everything you've ever gotten me. I wanted to thank you for every time you bought flowers, left a note, every little gesture. I know that sometimes I came off as unappreciative and sarcastic. I am sorry. I really did appreciate them and they mean a lot to me. Thank you."

Don't know how he will take it, but it was sincere. Over all, I feel pretty good about it. He wasn't always a cold hearted jerk.