hey Ed, I hear you girl, on the same leaky boat here, my H just doesn't have it in him to go ahead and go full force to fix our M... however... He is home, he's been out there and could've stayed out there but chose me, with lots of fear I believe, that it wouldnt' work out, and that's just not the way to go, so that's why our path is so bumpy.
If it were entirely up to my H we wouldn't be together at all. I worked to damn hard to go without a fight. Yes, you can't force anyone to love you the way you want to be loved, but perhaps, they are trying to find a way to do so. Here I am, recovering after a 2nd A with my H willingly not sleeping with me for 3 mths. Yea, I want to throw in the towel, but then, what's next? Sure, I 've been alone and I can make it, the question is, if my H were crippled in some way, physcally, would I have held on? hell yes. My H IS crippled now, emotionally, and I wont' give up just yet. If after some time (a year? 6mths?) things are the same (there have been baby steps now) I see no change, then I will hang my fighting gloves.
We all have our limit, perhaps you've reached yours, but I see that you say your H loves you, he does want to end things at work even if he is taking a while, and I see a glimmer of hope.
My prayers your way hon)))))))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
