Hi Me again,
I wrote this at 5 am because i woke up with my mind full of thoughts again. I have been thinking if he asks me about divorce mediation again maybe I should suggest he move out with her...or move out in general. If he broaches the convo I think I would say"Look, I understand you want something else right now and that's ok. I've been reading a lot on marriages and if we were mature about this we'd say"I've been a bad wife/H what can I do to make this better and we'd tell each other what we could do to make it better. But I realize you're not in that place to hear that right now and you haven't been since you met her and because you want something else. So have you given any thought to moving in with her?" Because I know that's what you want right now. And I think you should to give us more space, because I just am not ready for a Divorce Mediation right now. I'm not ready and I don't think we are either, but maybe that would give you the space and freedom you need.

What do you all think of this? I may reword some things but...don't have time at the moment. It took everything I had this morning to NOT start this convo with him...I literally bit my tongue. \:\)

Hugs to you all


Me:49 H:47
S: 16
T:27 M:25
My EA: 2001
His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013
Separated, but H still in house

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