Hey friend, I know when H starts acting like a normal person that I recognize it affects my detachment. My guess is that happens to you too, we get sucked back in and it's almost as hard as way back in the beginning. Silly isn't it? I try to keep my bubble in the middle, but it gets harder. Yes, my H said he would win this game. Funny part about that is we started playing this game (our M) and we were on the same team. Now he only plays for himself.
Chin up, buddy. Eyes on the horizon.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.