I haven't been on the boards lately. I'll try to update everyone as best as I can.
Last week I went to the NASCAR race and had a really good weekend just getting away and forgetting about the mess at home. D5 seems to have a hard time while not being with one of her parents. Every time I called she cried on the phone wanting me home and she does the same thing wanting my W when she is not around. It really sucks this is how life is going to be for her and her sister. At this point all I can do is try to make this easier on my girls, I just cannot take away all the confusion and pain that this D is going to create in their young lives.
This past weekend I had my little ladies. The weekend really seemed to have started for us on Wednesday. My girls and I spent the night at my parents house and then hung-out there Thursday night. Friday night we went to a friends house to hangout with him and his family. Then on Saturday we went to a kiddie haunted house then to a Halloween party. Sunday was the normal, church then football at my friends house.
Last night, I had softball. The softball season is officially over. We ended up taking second place which is a bit disappointing but at least we won some money. For last nights game I was really hoping that my girls would have been able to go to it. But, my STBXW would not allow them to go with me while she was in counseling. I understand that she wanted to be with them as much as possible since she hasn't seen them since last Wednesday. The one thing that I felt from my conversation with my W about our girls night was that I really hate hearing her tell me that she misses our girls while I have them for the weekend. Every time I hear comments like that I want to smack her upside her head and tell her this is what you have chosen for your life and our girls - get used to it. I am no longer very compassionate towards her feelings. Heck....I sometimes think good for you I hope it hurts..... I know it is not the right attitude but sometimes the feelings of bitterness comes out.....
Some more updates..... I close on the refi to my house this Thursday. From there my W is free to go close on her new home. The one thing is that she can have her home but our girls cannot live there until the D is final. We have provisional orders stating just that....I have a feeling she is going to fight me on that, but, I cannot let her just take our girls until this is all over with. The reason I cannot let her move the girls out is that her L has made it clear that he wants this all to get uglier...so it really just protects me from some of the legal garbage that might go on.....
