back on after a weekend....bad news the worst i have ever heard. _Me you were right, she did have an affair but I also found out that she was seeing someone else for 8 months before we got married. I used to look at my wife and see nothing but beauty but now all I can see is her uglyness. I am going to confront her about all of these and see if she will tell me the truth then, I am trying to go upto see her but she will not let me. I am so mad and angry at her for this but why am I so stuck on saving the marriage? Why do I phucking hate her but love her? Maybe it was just sex, or maybe she liked the company when I couldnt be there, or maybe she never really loved me. How do I handle this information, I have not ate or sleep in 2 days...it's like nothing matters anymore. Im thinking about going to see a DR and maybe get some anti-depressants. I went to my counselor yesterday morning and she isnt helping me, so I may need to find another counselor. it seems like my life is falling apart and I can not hold up all of the bricks and Im starting to get buried.
