There and Back #11

[mkultra]

Have a better tomorrow Morgan. Your sitch is giving me a major flashbak to when my mom finally had it out with my Dad. I almost forgot I walked in on that day. She had a box with all this evidence and she was crying and yelling in a weird lucid way as though she held it in for years and almost memorized the speech and it poured out. Like a purge. It just has to get out once and for all. I think we both had those epiphanies this week, you and I. Guess what? It won't be the last one either. Maybe the last major one but you will need to gather more strength and DBing may still come in handy. Use all your resources. Detach as LWB mentioned. You have been so kindhearted to your H throughout this process, it is time for you now! Take care of yourself first. I know that seems hard when you have been a wife and a Mom first but you need to be selfish now more than ever. remember your core Morgan. You are all grace and kindness. Your story has done so much for others. Cry it out like you did in the beginning and look ahead to something brighter. I saw a lovely scen in Gilmore Girls where Lorelei got a panic stricken look on her face realizing she may never get married to Luke. As if there really are no guarantees even if she was wearing an engangement ring but she took it one step at a time and hope for the best. That is all we can do. Your life is better than theirs. You win in the game of life.