just off the phone with my friend. she yelled at me but good, then we got down to a pretty constructive talk. one I hope to go deeper with my own therapist tomorrow.
I think db'g is bad for me. I think the gal stuff is great, but the holding on to hope and such, that hasn't been.
tomorrow is a new day. am going to go about my life. yes, h can come here. I'm not afraid of him. he can't hurt me anymore. he can try, but he can't. I still feel better, in a way, from releasing the anger at him.
I know I can't be friends with him right now. I need to cut that off. no safe path home...he's not coming home. I'm not going to be hostile to him, but I need to just be hi/goodbye with him. I can't do more, for my own health and well being. that's all that is left in me. he has made his choice, he is no longer the man I knew, and he isn't going to change back...or even move forward with me. I need to accept it and move on myself. that much is clear.
no, still don't plan to go to mediation. could change my mind tomorrow, most likely it will take longer. he says he won't, but he could go ahead and file, which is fine. his life. no doubt ow will lean on him soon enough. me, I'm going to go live mine, without him or the hope of him in it.
thanks for the support and the phone call offer, donna. hope you are doing okay, yourself.
sara, I love that, going to remember that..."be the calm after the storm." that will be my goal.
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M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
