Hardly faking it anymore: Puddle's third thread

[S.T. _I Made It!]

sorry if I was confusing, but I think your "apology" was just fine. I don't think you needed to specifically say sorry. because it was quite possible he never said it.

anyways, about your dream. I'm glad your not feeling that the guy in the dream is the guy for real.

I really really sense that this guy is hoping to get involved with you emotional/physically. Is it a good idea to be together alone? I did the exact same thing as you, and it turned into a PA. This was before I was M, but I was with my H then. I really felt like we weren't together (long story, so I'll keep it brief), and there were many reasons, one was we lived in different states which made it easier for it to happen. I just really see you on that same path that I was, everything that you are saying, I was there. I really regret what happened and I CANNOT believe that I had done that and fallen in that trap. That was absolutely NOT me.

IMHO, I think you should not go home when H calls and has a problem.. unless you think the kids are in danger. That isn't right for your H to expect you to come "save" everything and then he gets to just leave. So I'm glad you didn't leave right away, but I don't think you needed to come home as early as you did if you were having a good time. If the kids are up late one night, they will survive, and you'll get them back on schedule the next night.

I could totally see your s7 wanting attention. That IS scary with him playing with fire though. So, hopefully H isn't neglecting them, because it could have been worse.

on not getting picked up. that is best. your kids could see that too, and I don't think they need to. As well as your H not needing to know where or who you are going with/to.