Lets try thing again!!!!

[limbo]

Thanks again Sandi....It mean alot to know that you are there.

I sent a long email to my h today, I felt this was something that I had to do. I basically told him how I appreciate what he has done to change so far, I know its been hard, but I also said that this can not go on, that changes must be made, because I have to protect my kids and myself, as we can no longer live our lives in turmoil, that I want to get on with life, as we have spent to much time on this, I realize that I have to make this change for myself, for my mental health, so I have to let it go and move on, my hope is to move on with him, however if he isn't ab;e to commit to me and the kids then we will continue with out him.
I have reached this point now, I can't be low anymore, I am wasting my life away and losing the good years we have left of youth, on this, and we are losing time with our kids, and I just can't do it anymore.
So H read this tonight I wasn't sure what his reaction would be, and I was suprised as it was good, we didn't talk alot about it much, put he said that he wants to be here, and loves me, and will be calling the c tomorrow.
So I am hopeful but am just not putting all my hope into it anymore.

thanks for listening!