• Scared to recommit to the M because he "does not know what we are capable of". Says he "wants" to be with me and doesn't "want" a divorce, but what we had was not good enough & he doesn't "know what we're capable of". Doesn't seem able to accept the idea that if you "want" to be with someone then you do it - you make it work. (this is my view anyhow)
• ILYBINILWY • I don't know • I miss you, love you, would *die* for you (But he can't recommit to the M??!) • When I think of not being with you I can't breathe, I have panic attacks • Scared about throwing our lives away on a "mediocre" marriage (it has been mediocre, I agree, but whereas I am motivated to improve it with C and focused effort, he is scared to invest more AND scared to throw away the good there) • We've never had the physical connection we should have, must be chemistry • I don't have the strength to go through this again (separation, almost D), if we stay together, that's it for me. (romantic, huh?)
Even if this REALLY IS a MLC....how will I EVER know if he's really "into" me if we stay together?
Me: 32, H: 32 Together: 11, M: 8, Kids: 0 Separated: 6/15/07 My Story
