nope, I feel angry still. angry that I put up with the lies so long, and not only that, helped perpetuate them by making this all seem okay...he's with her, but sleeping with me from time to time. that is NOT okay. I'm not his wife anymore, just am legally. the woman he is living with deserves to know what she is getting. even if she is a skanky whore. I wish someone had told me a year ago. you know that hypothetical question that gets tossed around, would you want to know, well, I fall into the group that would have wanted to know.
I don't think this will cause problems with them, I don't, not even close. I think he'll send her a couple of dozen roses and it will all be better. he'll fight to get her back...he told me last spring that she broke up with him on a monthly basis, and he fought each time to get her back. and she always came back. she will again.
the only thing I think I will regret is that not going to mediation will shoot me in the foot.
but damn, it felt good to call a spade a spade. don't know if it will in the morning, but wow, it felt good now.
pure adreneline though...still coursing thru my veins. have to take D3 to dance in a few minutes and it will be hard having an hour of civilized conversation with other moms. or maybe it will be what i need to calm down finally.
I have never, ever been so angry in my life. ever.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
