Since you just hung up on me I will just have to write you an email which is not really what I want to do. The discussion that we just had on the phone is a microcosm of what I feel and have felt about our relationship for a long time. It seems that no matter how much you talk about controlling your emotions you will always be the person who makes a big deal over issues that don’t need to be blown up to that point. I have already deposited that stock check in the account today and I have every right to have my own checking account just as you do.
The idea that I have anything to hide financially is a joke. I have never once stopped supporting you and the kids and have every intention of doing so moving forward. I have continued to direct deposit my checks into our account and have left the bills with you. There is nothing else to hide. You know what I have and the idea that you would consider throwing away thousands on attorneys when we have so little is shocking to me. The only questions at hand here would be financial and the kids. I think we both agree on issues with the kids and since I literally have nothing else financially why would we do that?
You are an intelligent person Morgan and you have obviously done some research on this and you are aware that you wouldn’t have to agree with anything if you didn’t want to. Why would that not work?
my response, unfortunately, will be one I probably live to regret. but I am blinded by anger right now. I am so angry I can't even see straight (edited because this is a nice, family site...no, normally my mouth isn't this bad):
fck you.
fck you for continuing to blame me for everything wrong in our relationship
fck you for demonizing me
fck you for all of this
fck you for being a fcking loser bastard lying cheating [censored]
fck you
this, H, is why our relationship went wrong. and fck you for never wanting to make it right.
gee, ya wonder why I don't trust you to do something right via mediation? what is there to trust? the funny thing is, I would have trusted you again someday, if you were half the man I know you are. fck you for going in this direction.
ya know what, h, you show me your fcking proposal for the divorce. show me that, then I'll decide whether mediation is even going back on the table. because you know what, h? right now its far from it, and its going to have to be a fcking good deal for me to even go back to considering.
choke on your lies, [censored]. choke on them. I did NOTHING in my life or our life together to warrant them. all I've ever done is fcking love you, and when I found out something was wrong, try to fix those things. and you saw stuff that was wrong but never had the fcking guts to try to fix them. just like (your friend). he doesn't love (his wife) anymore, but instead of trying to fix his marriage, he just blasts it to other people. what the fck happened to stepping up and trying before just giving up.
fck you. hope you and fcking OW will be very happy. hope you both choke on each other.
Last edited by morgan; 10/29/0705:47 PM.
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