Self esteem - it's tricky. Very tricky. I agree, but what part of this isn't hard on the self esteem?? I think it would be much harder on me if H was the type that acted repulsed by me and wanted to have nothing to do with me. I think that would destroy my self esteem much quicker than looking in his eyes and hearing him tell me he loves me and he misses me, but that he's made such a mess of things in his life that he doesn't know how to straighten things out or even if they can be straightened out.
Yes, I know - my self esteeem went through the floor, it still hurts terribly that he is repulsed by me, even though I know it is MLC. Particularly as I am much more attractive than the OW.
My heart aches at times, but I know it would also hurt if he made love to me and then went off to the OW . . .
