Truly Piecing once and for all!

[Heartbroken]

Hello All,

Well I am happy to add some slightly positive notes to these boards -seems as if many of us out here had some rough weekends darn!!

H and I left Friday eve for our Retrouvaille weekend and what a weekend it was. We worked on things to 11 at night both Fri/Sat and got started each morning at 8:30 (breakfast at 7:30). There were 28 couples in the group and we got to meet a lot of nice people.

Overall our experience was positive. They have given us some tools to use in how to dialogue with each other and H wants to do our sessions each night without fail - even with our hectic schedules we can do them b4 going to sleep.

I don't think we actually resolved anything 100% but we both feel we have let go of a lot of fear that was paralyzing us. H still is not sure of if he can ever love me - but he did get the message that love is a choice.

I on the other hand have finally let the OW fear go COMPLETELY and I feel I can once again BREATHE for real!!! Wow, I feel lighter than I have in months. I am starting to understand his inner feelings and where he is at and it really is all due to his own internal conflicts not about feelings for OW. I am not sure where we are heading - together or apart but I know we are both willing to keep trying and we plan to attend all the post sessions before making any real life changing decisions.

I have faith in us - but either way we will be good to each other together or apart. My faith and patience levels have been restored and I actually look forward to working on things together - to try and get on the same page.

H says it's like we are both building that bridge over a river but our specs are off and we just cannot get each of our halves to meet in the middle. Hopefully these post sessions will get us even more on track...

Happy Monday everyone - I am thankful for where I am at. I finally feel a little (just a little) bit of peace and I saw a glimmer of hope this weekend!!

HB