I need to stop caring about his feelings so much. I need to concentrate on me and d6. d6 is manipulating the situation because she doesn't want to leave the security of our house. She refused to go stay with h on Saturday night and h didn't push the issue _at all_. Not happy. We spent all day Saturday together and then he stayed at home that night in the spare room.
I need to set boundaries. I need to find some 'pretend cojones' (real ones would be offputting!) and tell h that I don't want to spend time with him. Saturday was very tense and anxious for me. He was insensitive on one occasion by mentioning his new 'potential squeeze' and I flipped a bit. REally I shouldn't have let it bother me but because I have become such a wussbag and not telling him how I really feel (ie that I feel used and that he is being selfish and not thinking about how to do things best for our daughter) and get him to leave me alone except in regards to our daughter.
I'm seeing his mum for lunch today. It will be the first time I've seen her in quite a while. I'm not stressed about seeing her, I like her. I'm curious (dying of curiosity actually) to know what he has told his parents and what they think of the situation but really, it's not my business - or is it? what do you ppl think.
And thanks for the support w8ting and Bill. I know I'm not damaged goods really, I was just feeling sorry for myself.
