haven't quite recovered from that dust-up we had to do to get your out of our country 200 years ago.
Now no grudge bearing or ruminating here then!!!! LOL
I love Cold Feet. I saw that before I knew about H's A. I don't know how I would feel watching it now as i find films, books, TV etc with any infidelity in makes me feel strange.
My H took me to see Aspects of Love at the Theatre for our wedding anniversary in Sept and we didn't know the story before we went - it's all about infidelity. H just sat and gradually got lower and lower in his chair - what a way to start a romantic overnight trip!!!!!
Our local hairdresser had an A with a married man and his W came and dropped her kids in the salon in a very public way stating that if she wanted her H she could have the kids as well!!!!! Not so good for the kids but sure got the town gossiping.
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
omg, that must have been a tough night at the theatre.
cold feet is tough to watch. I've never seen it before. at first I was just disturbed by the guy from murphy's law's hair (can't think of his name offhand). I'm used to the hairline in murphy's law, so it looks like he has a brillo pad on his head in cold feet.
what really got tough was when the h who ends up having the affair first suspects his wife of one. the blind panic and snooping, wow. they did a good job with it.
I have a hard time with infidelity in shows now. amazingly prevalent, though. I used to love the movie, Same Time Next Year. for some reason I used to think it was sooo romantic. now it makes me ill. well, if I could watch it again.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
okay, the high of doing as well as I could in yesterdays conversation is officially gone. I've come down hard...am having a good cry. just sad that this is where we are. my h doesn't love me anymore. he couldn't have made it clearer. he loves her. even if its mlc/fog/alien spew, its how he feels. he is gone. its over. I never got a chance to fix anything. I never even knew we were broken.
very sad right now. I keep seeing his face/hearing his voice tell me over and over that he doesn't want me anymore.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
Let it happen. You were in shock and its wearing off. It hurts like nothing else, but if you hold it in, it'll be worse. I wish I could sit with you, or play with your kids while you rest and relax. I am thinking of you.
thanks lwb. I cried for a bit and am okay right now. I think posting this stuff/venting helps me get it out as much as the tears do, then is like the water has boiled off again and I'm okay. for now.
the kids have been amazing today. I've played with them some, of course, but they've mostly been coloring/playing happily on their own. we just watched, "its the great pumpkin, charlie brown." love that, but my kids are very much offended that they call each other blockheads (they know name calling is mean). I still love peanuts, even as an adult, so its fun to share things like this, blockhead and all.
you know what, h doesn't want this life anymore. well, its his loss. it is. what an empty self-centered life he'll have. I just hope he never sees his children as disposable, like he does everyone else in his life. either way, I will make damned sure they know they aren't.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
lol. I'd love to teach them to call ow something. hehehe. but I suppose I won't.
yeah, waves, I know. and I know its good to let it out, and I'm glad i have a place like here to come and vent when I need to. it helps. otherwise i'm tempted to do it at him, and I know that will backfire each and every time.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
well, its been an exciting couple of hours. discovered that S5 has his first loose tooth. he is so fired up, so excited, so proud even. just tickled to death. had to call both daddy (he didn't pick up), the grandma's, h's grandma, an aunt. they all had to be told by him, and they were all so excited for him. he's so freaking cute. wonder how long till it falls out, and what the going tooth fairy rate is?
h finally called about a half hour ago and sounded like ah, isn't that great. not a whole lot of enthusiasm. sad, because its a big deal to S5. I mean, I know he didn't discover a cure for cancer, but still, must some excitement. I know this family life is beneath you now, you big man you, but this is your son...the one you like, remember?
okay, yeah, a little sarcastic. at least not to h, so that is something.
anyway, just had to share. a whole new world. I already see the permanent one behind it. wow!
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
Our tooth fairy brings a �1 for the first tooth and 50p for every other one. Wow it's exciting!!!!!!
Over time she has got a bit forgetful and somtimes the kids have to go back and research in their beds but she is really nice and accepts notes in lieu of teeth lost during the day or lost at school. Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
