I know that when H was still in EA with ow and the bomb had burst....I initiated all the sex...he refused to kiss me 'french kiss' because it was too intimate for him...and he often said after the sex that he felt he was using me....I think it left a bitter after taste for him ....guilt. I always told him that I had a great time and LOVED doing it ! He didn't seem to believe me...my Psych told me that I was 'prostituting myself'. But I really WANTED H to see the changes in me and my WILL to work at our R ! THis was all before I found out about MLC or DB !
Once his EA turned PA, it stopped, I stopped initiating, I don't think it would be appropriate, although I would LOVE to..... One thing that does keep me from trying is the chance of him rejecting me !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
