thanks lwb. I cried for a bit and am okay right now. I think posting this stuff/venting helps me get it out as much as the tears do, then is like the water has boiled off again and I'm okay. for now.
the kids have been amazing today. I've played with them some, of course, but they've mostly been coloring/playing happily on their own. we just watched, "its the great pumpkin, charlie brown." love that, but my kids are very much offended that they call each other blockheads (they know name calling is mean). I still love peanuts, even as an adult, so its fun to share things like this, blockhead and all.
you know what, h doesn't want this life anymore. well, its his loss. it is. what an empty self-centered life he'll have. I just hope he never sees his children as disposable, like he does everyone else in his life. either way, I will make damned sure they know they aren't.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
