While I agree, getting ditched stinks, don't sweat it. There's more where she came from.
It's not funny, but I almost laughed when I read that you blew up on her, and started wondering if she's all she's cracked up to be.
You see, I just completely detonated on mine yesterday, even though I went into the conversation telling myself I wouldn't. We were having a discussion (disagreement,) about moving after the divorce. She asked "How am I being selfish?" OOPs, there I went, both barrels. I really f'd up, maybe unrecoverably.
Then, this morning she had her angry face on, I was looking at her (whoever she is,) thinking "I don't know if I want to be with this new person anymore."
The blow-ups do happen, but you just have to keep on DBing. That part's mostly about us anyway. I feel your pain on the doubting part. I guess that's the big question.
This is the perfect place to vent. It's better to do it here than in front of them. (I wish I could have stopped myself yesterday, what a hypocrite.)
-------------- The Forlorn Hope:...A picked body of men detached to the front to begin the attack....Fortified, meaning strengthened to stand...and thus, positioned for victory