I've been seeing your thread title and then I saw another one of your threads about seeing changes. Sounds to me like you are not fully ready to give up. I say this because I have been where you are many times, but there was always someone here who saw through what I was saying and told me the same (I think you may have been one of them, also IMP).
If you need to, take a break from DB. You can always come back to it. Hopefully the crush is just a crush and you'll see that you really aren't emotionally ready for anything more. I will say that crushes are great for getting you to see that life after D does exist. At least that's what I use them for when I'm feeling down...
(I mean simply having an innocent crush on someone from afar, without letting Crushee, or anyone else, know about it. NOT acting on it...)
