yeah, nice of him, wasn't it, to go there about ow today? unfortunately if I had been better focused I could have seen what was coming and handled it better than I did. he just does not see things the way I do. I asked him if he could understand why the thought of seeing ow, or her having part of my children's lives, would be painful to me. finally he conceded that point...but the concession was short lived. he just thinks it will be painful for 5 minutes, then everything will be wonderful.
guess that's why he's hoping to dump me off on some guy. if I'm distracted by someone else, I'll be able to emotionally handle all the crap ahead soooo much better.
ugh.
saffie, I'd rather have a bottle in front of me. (okay, old joke...is that one told in the uk?). btw, when this all first came out my mil was sure he had a brain tumor. I'm talking dead certain of it, not joking, she was terrified, because he was so drastically different all of the sudden. and oh, how i love you for the ow's hand up his butt statement...maybe that is it. sure seems like it.
lwb, I'm glad you are in my corner, because wow, when you get angry...yikes! but you and my friend and everyone else is right, he's a fool, an idiot, and heartless. lacks a lot of empathy. is as selfish as a 2 year old. worse.
yep, dom, he lacks a lot...no male role model, no role model of any healthy committed marriage. he told me last night that he thinks people are disposable. that his own mother, whom he loves, he could easily go 6 month without talking to her and not care. and ya know what, its true. I know it is. I knew that about him, I just never thought in my wildest imagination that I would be one of the people he disposed of. live and learn.
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