well, he just left and it almost went well. we even chatted briefly. before he came my sister and I were on the phone and I think I'm going to go ahead and drive down to VA with the kids for thanksgiving...well, will drive the friday after, since h has the kids for thanksgiving, and we'll have the big dinner at my sister's house on saturday. my niece/nephews birthday is that friday, so my kids will get to be there for that, too (yes, they were born the same day, 2 years apart, btw).
anyway, h asked if he could come by for halloween and I said yes, then I asked him if it was okay if I took the kids that thanksgiving weekend. there was a bit of confusion, he didn't remember the holiday schedule I'd laid out months ago, but he was fine with it. so we started talking a bit about Dan almighty. my sister and I both saw it this weekend and we were laughing about some of the extended family moments, and also a bit sad because of distance, we don't get together often. anyway, H was interested that I saw the movie...he was very interested in who I saw it with (scott, if you are reading, he asked if I saw it with wel hung, lol).
I didn't answer, just said a friend. none of his business. but it was good to have a sort of normal exchange, considering what is going on.
then he said he had a weird dream, that he ran into my BIL (my sister's h) and that BIL was really cold to him. I told him it beat my dream, I dreamed I ran into OW.
that, right there, was my mistake. I didn't elaborate on my dream, just said that. he said it was bound to happen, he was surprised it hasn't, and because of where things are going its going to happen sooner rather than later. that she is going to be a part of my kids lives and such. I said yeah, but I hope I don't have a reason to see her myself until the kids weddings. he was very offended by that idea. seemed downright eager for his life to just magically fall into place, with me and ow being buddy buddy, her being a surrogate parent for the kids, etc, etc.
I want to throw up.
we didn't end well. I'm too tired to care. he went off on me for some stuff, I asked him not to in front of the kids, he did anyway.
so much fun.
this sucks.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
