Forrest Gump and his box of choclates.

[littlebitlost]

Curling up in a ball? Why Forrest? I know sometimes you have to you and you KNOW the last person you should have done that with is your W. I know how she is feeling. I have sat in the very same spot with my h and held him. It made me numb. You go numb to stop the guilt of what you feel you are puttign someone through, you go numb to stop the pain of knowing what you are putting someone through, you go numb so you dont have to think! I KNOW, I have been there.

Those raw emotions scared me more than anything becuase I did not know how to stop his pain and believe me even though at the time I felt I was SURE (and at the time is the key phrase here because look at me now) I still LOVED him with all my heart. I just felt not in love.


You have to let your W go to really get her back. She HAS to see you in a different light. Say to her...that is the last time you will see me like that, you know how I feel and what I want but I will not push or talk about it anymore, today is the day that I am truly letting you go. When I said those words to SPS he took notice.

YOU HAVE to be strong and dedicated and determined. I spent alot of time crying in the car. Pick a spot, go there and let out all the self-pity and then be FOrrest again. It feels like b*llshit when you are acting all bright and shiny and happy but it wil start to feel good. Your W will have alot of changes to make wihtin herself as well and you have to give her time to realize this and to make the changes, otherwise you will never be in the same place again. You need to be in the same place to be together and to stay together.

Be interested in how she is, what she is doing, she of course and you have said it to me yourself, will be suspicious and not believe the changes so make them lasting and permanent.

You can do this forrest.....start taking your own advice for crying out loud!

(((((((Forrest))))))) XOXOXOX hugs and kisses too (on top of the cyber hug)