Thank you guys for the (((HUGS))))you don't now how much I needed them. I am doing OK. He was here at my house at 7:00am this morning to go over the books. He fell asleep in the chair for awhile. I am trying to get sll yhr books caught up. He wanted me to come in and talk to him about what is going on. It is amazing how you let things get so complicated during your marriage. He has been unhappy for a long time. He says he loves me but can't live with me that we are not good for each other. Tha we don't motivate each other and bring out all the motivation that we need. He is 52 and thinks he hasn't accomplished enough in business. I told him that we had both grown up and saw what we needed to fix but he says it is just over. He said she might not be the answer because it is about him succeeding and she might not fit the picture but she isn't the cause of our problems. I said maybe not but she was the icing on the cake. I am kinda numb and thinking we have drugged this on for to long. Maybe it would be good for him to see what all he relies on me for. I guess time will tell. He left to go to a ball game one of her kids. All of a sudden we are mother of the year and decided to see her kids sports. Her kids at one time lived with her but all went back to their dad and his wife. She really puts on the act. Oh well...I finally realized that is his problem. He called me after he left and said that I am the kindest sweetest most caring person ever and she isn't any where at all as good as person as me. Hard to figure isn't it. Only one way to go and it is to take care of me and the boys. I am glad my boys are old enough to decide what they want to do. They need to stay in contact with their dad but not her.

It was such a beautiful day that I went for a 4 hr drive and stopped and visisted an old friend for an hour or so. It was very nice. I am supposed togo to my sister in laws little bar and dress up but I need to get our books all done so we can look things over.

I wish you guys were closer because the hugs were over whelming and much appreciated . Husband you are right I shouldn't think of it as a failure. I tried and I am a good mother and I have 2 really good boys that are all you can wish for. We had good years to but it is amazing how much the bad comes up instead of the good.

I guess back to tht grind. Thank you so much....Have a good nite.

Mattie,

How are you doing? I haven't saw where you have posted much. Are you making it ok?