Morgan, (((HUGS))) I am soooooooo proud of you. I don't know what else to say except that you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. You did everything right. I bet he's in a tail spin trying to figure you out.
It really gets me how he complains that you cannot let him go because he so obviously holds on to you in so many ways. It seems like you have him pegged though. He is a "messed up" "wreck".
I'm sorry that you find yourself here, but you can hold your head up high. You are a spectacular woman and you've given your marriage 110%. It still isn't necessarily "over", but, for your own sanity, it might be best to look at it that way.
I wish I could be there to give you a great big hug. Sharing a glass of wine and cookie dough might help too.
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9