I'm getting a little nervous, now that its getting close to game time. I talked to my friend a bit ago and already see myself slipping into "problem solving mode." she checked me on that, hopefully I'll be able to do that for myself when push comes to shove. I did write a list of things I wanted to remember in the notebook in case I need to refer to it. may or may not help. (the good news is, I may not be a doctor, but I write like one, so h wouldn't be able to read it even if he wanted to. lol)
calmblueocean
just took a hot shower and found myself slipping a bit...just starting to become a bit emotional. but I was able to use some of the tools i have learned in the book to re-focus me again, and I'm in a good (but nervous) place once more. I only made it to about a little more than halfway in the book...I was reading it too fast, not giving myself time to process what I was reading fully, so I stopped. a good decision I think. will pick it up again tomorrow. I'm sure this isn't the last crucial conversation I'll have in my life, let alone this relationship.
I love landslide, always have. I had forgotten the dixie chicks covered it, never knew tori did. I love the dixie chicks version, but wow do I love stevie nicks' version...you can hear the heart she put into it.
okay, calmblueocean
listen gather information don't judge don't flee or snark; watch my tone of voice and facial expressions. respect, even if I don't agree keep the dialogue safe, steer it back if it heads to unsafe territory keep my stories in check no problem solving keep my goals in mind, don't get suckered into forgetting them remember I am allowed time to process remember no matter what happens, I will be okay
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
