Probably my last post for awhile. I'm gonna be on vacation in Hawaii for the next week, and not taking my laptop. Just wanted to post a quick update.
Yesterday, I was busy getting ready to leave today. It wasn't until evening that I decided to make myself available for a quick phone convo with H. I texted him to let him know I was free and he could call if it worked for him. He texted right back telling me he was on a call and that they were gonna be tied up there for awhile, and acted disappointed. I came back to say no worries, maybe another time, that I hoped so, and was all lovey, lol. He came back to reciprocate, thank me, and said we need to catch up. I ended the exchange by being lovey and said k, let's keep in touch. ILYs were shared.
This is so typical of him, but I decided this week to have a little fun with it this time rather than backing away from him and being more distant or dark. I guess it's possible I am wrong about what it is he is doing, but this way I will not be setting myself up for any expectations. This is my doing something different. I'm thinking it may be a way to prove myself wrong if I'm jumping to conclusions. Before, I would've thought this would be putting pressure on him. At this point in my sitch, that's okay if it does.
This morning it got even funnier, and more typical yet. He could've sent this same text to me last Winter. It was so like Groundhog Day, lol. It was around 8:30am, when he would have likely left work and be on his way "home". He comments how cold it is out, how he is going to be busy today all day, that he'd like to chat some real soon, he'd try me later but if no luck he'll be around Sunday and try me then (he'd most likely be at work is why, lol), till then stay warm, and a "love ya" rather than an ILY this time. I texted back almost about half an hour later to say sounds good, thanks, that I would stay warm and for him to do the same, talk soon, and "love ya too". lol.
Yeah, today will be a cold one for me for sure.... until my plane lands.
My plan is to stay consistent with this latest approach of mine, but not be thinking so much about him. I've given him too much thought lately.
Hope all of you have a great weekend, and a wonderful week. Happy Halloween! Have fun and take care of your beautiful selves. Peace and love, f21
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
