Good news, bad news, I guess. The not in a hurry to file is a cushion. contiue to DB, and prepare yourself for what happens if it does come to D. Either way, you'll be better off.
Why wouldn't she be happy how you are right now? She's in the house with your kids and you're not. It's a lot harder if you're reading to your kids, and closing the door and leaving. I know, because I've been there. I didn't mean to go off yesterday, but the cavalier attitude of these WASs, thinking "kids are resilient", blah, blah, blah. My kids are devastated by the fact that their parents may divorce.
I also didn't mean to imply that your being here for as long as me is any type of badge of honor, it's that I've seen so many people come and go here, it's disheartening. There are more reconciliations thatn I thought, however.
Hang in there. COntinue to love your kids. Don't fall apart like I originally did...
