another bomb is dropped

[just_plain_hopef]

At my wits end today, it must be the full moon. I know better than this, but I'm still more strung out than I should be. I'm happy to have my friends and this board to do my venting on.
today, was going to store with W and d3, W got frustrated with the radio b/c every station she could flip to had something to do with a L song-I just let it go.
later on tonight had a conversation with w and let her know how much I appreciated what she does for me and d's. w just sat and listened and didn't say much the rest of the night.
after that I went a little nuts myself and retreated to the bedroom by myself to release and just have a good cry(yes I sound pathetic). After that, I felt much better, composed myself and started hanging pictures(that sure beats punching holes in walls, which I had considered doing about 30 min before!).
earlier today, I stumbled upon one of w's letters to one of her friends(which I shouldn't have looked at) where she talked about OM from the summer before last who she had dated briefly. she hasn't been able to find or contact him(whew). But, she wrote about how she found him to be a "male version of herself" who liked to write and draw. OM is really a 35-yr old man collecting comic books living with his father with a nothing job. Not to be full of myself, but I really doubt he could touch me as far as keeping up with w's moodiness(or shopping habits) let alone hold down a job and be 1/2 the father I am to our d's. However W likes his freedom and carefree attitude(I need to still work on these more). I got to thinking, well D@#n, I used to be way cooler than that before W, but it's kind of a go nowhere destructive lifestyle. We've come too far together to let this junk stand in our way of being happy. W ought to know better than to pull this junk with all of the spiritual learning that she has done.

There--it's done, all my garbage is out of my head, no more poisoning my thoughts or words