WEll guys its over. She did go to get his trailer with him. He said that it has been over with us for along time. So I said does that give you the right to do this to me. We are still married. We had a big talk about her. I said it is to hard emotionally to be here by myself while my H is sleeping with someone else. How fair is that. You use me for business and think everything is alright. Why do I deserve to be treated like that. He said he has never treated me like he should have and that it isn't my fault. That I am kind a good mother and have been a good wife and he doesn't know what is wrong. He wants to sit down and divide everything up and he says then give me more. That I have worked really hard. I even told him we get along better than most married couples and our family is a strong supportive one what is wrong. I also told him she is going to try and come between him and the boys and that he has really goood boys. I said that is one thing I don't want him to allow. I said she is already doing it and controlling him. I said I can't do anything about her except tell him that. She is his problem not mine. We have kinda drug this out for a few years. I guess I was in a fairy land dream thinking that it would get ok. I wish I would have found DBing a few years back and maybe it would be different. The man is not happy. He is really an unhappy person. The thing is I know the real him and that isn't who he is. I have a hard time convincing myself that I haven't failed. I am an only child and have tried hard all my life to be caring and succeed and to treat people like you would want to be treated. I wish that I would have been more selfish for myself now. Its bad when the b$!@# ends up with what I have worked for. She will never have to go thru all the hardships and heart aches and financial struggles that we did. She steps in when its easy. One thing the boys are old enough I don't have to worry about her influencing them. She has 4 kids and they all live with their dad because she is such a bad mother. I guess I'm venting again. I am so numb tonight. I know I need to be thinking of me but it is hard when everything around you reminds you of him. Heart ache is a tough one. This effects not only us but his brother and parents too we are partners. It has been a tough year on all of us. WE have been together 28 years and would have been married 26 in Feb. I just can't have the drama any more. We live a small community where everyone knows everyone for 150 miles each way. SO that is another hardship becasue they all know whats happening. People couldn't believe I have stayed this long this is his 2nd Affair. He begged me to come back before and I did. Stupid me. Trying to save my family. I guess I am a little to late.
Thanks to who ever reads this it just helps to write things out.
