mk, I think fate stepped in. that letter is a great one to write out and burn, not one to send. I'm going to be honest here...don't resend it, if you haven't.
I know what you mean about seeing two different men. I am sad about the same things, in a way...my H before was a good man. he was. and while there were more issues than I ever even dreamed of going on, he was at least somewhat happy. now he just seems sad...sad and confused and lost and unhealthy. just a big old mess. I have no doubt he has moments of joy and happiness, as long as reality is kept at bay...when he's out on the town, when he's with ow. but he just seems so bent on destrying himself. I think if I saw him happier, if I saw him taking care of himself like he used to, if I saw him striving to be a better man, well, it would maybe be easier. it hurts enough to be rejected, to see your h with another woman, but to see them practically destroy themself in the process, well, that just sucks.
(and btw honestly, probably smarter not to wrestle like H and I).
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
