I don't know if I should continue to DB.

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W8, No just PMSing!

I feel a bit better today. Still nothing from H re. D. And I started to think more about things.

DB C asked me where I see things in 5 years. I have to admit that at this time, I see us as divorced. I do not see H taking the initiative in our relationship that I need at this time and I seriously question if he would take it in the future. I have worked hard and made positive changes and I am not sure if I see H responding.

Also, I am getting used to being on my own. I do not miss Raging Whining Angry H and his constant complaining.....

Then I told DB C that I might consider filing on my own if I don't see changes in the next 6-8 months. I would not do it as a DB technique, either. I would do it prepared to follow through.

Crush feelings were fairly intense today but Crushee (as I shall call him) was pretty quiet. Oh well, my intensity of interest there waxes and wanes. Sometimes I feel like it's just nice to have someone who seems to think I am attractive. I am not sure if he does but he seems to. So that is flattering.