Barb - yes, I'm sure the baby's not his. The tone of the emails pretty much excluded that.
Truthfully, I DON'T believe anything happened. I'm just mad that H would consider putting himself in a situation that might possibly lead to temptation.
And I don't like being the suspicious one. I was always very trusting of H and his friendships, this wouldn't have even registered on my radar before his affair. But now, knowing how vulnerable he is when he is depressed, we AGREED he wouldn't have any solo friendships with women. And to his credit, he DID tell me about that first contact.
Don't worry, I'm not about to put up with any real misbehavior. He's been in a blue funk for quite a while now, relieved only temporarily by that new job that didn't work out. I'm afraid my patience for dealing with his depression has grown very thin - hence my enthusiasm for making sure I'm financially independent soon. Still, in an ideal world, I'd like to help him out of his depression - because he really is a fabulous and loving H when he's not depressed.
