Hardly faking it anymore: Puddle's third thread

[Heimlich]

And I have a message out to my wonderful blond friend asking if she's up for something tonight

Gotta find that vintage shirt.

Originally Posted By: Heimlich
Just a shame he won't turn towards you to work through it together.


You know, when I read this I thought, "Yikes!" Not sure how I'd do if he did. I think I could be calm and distant, but I have the sense the distant part wouldn't do anything for him right now. Actually his call surprised me in its openness, but what I felt was sorry for him instead of the "honey, we can work this out together" I've felt in the past. I'm not sure how much of a help I could be to him right now.

I meant regarding the marriage, not just helping him through his issues. In some ways, I'm reminded of me and the W, we were connected for a good long while, then kindasorta for a bit, but just kept missing each other and then that got worse and worse. Sounds like you two have been missing each other (connection wise) for a while. Thing is, from here it sounds like there's a lot of friendship, which if you focused on it, could probably create that spark that you want and your H is so desperately searching for.

That said, doesn't matter cuz your hubby don't care. So, you sound really, really good. One thing strikes me though, don't put up walls uneccessarily:

You know, my goal has always been emotional vulnerability combined with great strength.

That's a great goal. Takes great strength to be emotionally vulnerable. Working on that one myself.

Unshaven, bra-less women running

How unshaven?

but it all centers around sitting around drinking and smoking, and at the end there (pre-bomb) I realized I was turning into a vegetable there, despite the fun, often interesting conversation and good vibe.

I have this image of a bunch of really smart people sitting on comfy couches, taking drags on cigarrettes while saying in faux french accents, "I am so bored." and "Camus was a poseur." And "Foucalt. He's just fou."

Have a good weekend. Hang in there.

Oh, and about the walls comment earlier, my point -- I did have one -- what happens if your H does start reaching out to you?

BD