how about a separation for starters, it might give you both time to think about what you really want. My H never did appologize about the 2nd A and deceiving me and lying to me, well, he did say "sorry" but he might've as well been saying any other word, he had a blank face and didn't look sorry at all (as of this day, we are getting along better but still, no heartfelt appology). I wonder if it is shame and the fact that they've been found out and knee deep in crap that they dont' think of our feelings. Right now, your H is too inmerse in how screwed up he'll be (in case of D) and that's why he can't even think of how he's hurted you and how much you need an appology.
You know you are NOT what he told you you were, think of the source, he's royally messed up, he's just spewing venom, he's one toxic person with so much to loose. You are a wonderful person who are willing to forgive something horrendous, it takes a lot of heart and class to do this, his words are just BS.
My prayers your way, he seems like a miserable person and perhaps being appart will let the tension off you and will give you time to think.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
