One day at a time, #3

[saffie]

That is precisely why you should not contact him. You would be behaving just as he would expect and give him more ammunition.

Luv, you have got to control yourself or you might as well give up on your M now. Your kids are obviously getting caught up in all this and that is wrong. Even if you hated your H he is their father. Please calm down. Go for a run. Physically wear your self out. Anger will not make this any better. Reread what your C told you to do. You take advice, say you are going to heed it, and then do the exact opposite. Please stop before you do something you regret really badly and that cannot be undone. You have to break this cycle with your H. If you send an email like you are talking about you are just cranking everything up again another notch. STOP.

Saffie