well, he called. just as we were running out the door to take s5 to school, so only had a moment to talk. he sounds like he's hurting big time. found out a couple of guys he used to work with ended up in the box with him last night, so he had a lot of fun and stayed out late.
I'm irritated for some reason. just irritated in general with him...with everything. comes in waves...some days I feel fine, some days i feel sad, some days I feel angry. today its angry (or at least right now it is). I get mad just thinking about the life he has chosen, and the fun he is having, and how easy he just walked away. and how easy he's had it since! 2 women fighting over you can't be all that bad, hmmm?
I know this isn't productive thinking, but just venting a bit I guess. maybe part of it is a bit of sabotage.
well, the twins are playing so going to settle down and keep reading my book. hopefully that will get my focus back for tomorrow's talk.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
