FLTC, man I hope that your gut is wrong. I was convinced that I had made some progress. Then....WHAM! I will say that when I called W, I could tell that she did not want to talk about this. She said that she was about to go to sleep, which I found odd at 9:30 pm. So against all the advice I have read on this board, I did a ddrive by. All the lights were on but no cars in the driveway. I thought maybe she fell asleep watching TV in her room. After waking up this morning, I decided to drive by again before work (I just had a feeling). I drive by and see her old car in the driveway. She was out last night when I spoke to her, probably at her boyfriend's house. I can accept that she wants a D, but I am furious at her arrogance that she thought she could lie to me and I would not find out. I believe that the reason the D was not filed right away was b/c she had not found another guy yet, I was Plan B. At this point, I do not want to DB. Who wants to be with someone who shows you absolutely no respect? They all probably had a big laugh about how they were fooling me. I am not leaving the M until I let her know that I see her for the liar that she is.
FLTC, I have found that we get into trouble when we ignore our gut feelings. We try to rationalize those feelings away but we had those feelings for a reason. I am bit relieved now that I finally know what must be done. No more being in limbo and no more lies. I hope that it is not over for you but don't dimiss that feeling you have. Ask yourself, "why do I feel like it is over?" Go over the reasons. It may be painful, but at least you can avoid falling into the trap of false hope. That little voice in our head is right most of the time I have found in my experience. Keep me posted and I will do the same. God speed.
