I want out. as it stands, and as it has stood for most of our time together, there is an unhealthy dynamic going on. I want to learn to love myself and be enough of a person for ME, before I can be anything to anyone else. I feel subsumed when I am with h and he feels that I "suck the life out of him". Nice.
I just want things to separate amicably and respect boundaries. I need some space to discover how to look after myself. I would like to be his friend but I surely don't appreciate the way he has treated me when we were married so I'm not sure if I'll like how he treats me as a friend. He has always overstepped the 'appropriate' boundaries with me and I have always let him do so without mature and sensible repercussions. I have been passive aggressive in trying to communicate my discomfort when he has crossed those lines so I feel very hypocritical to go to town on him now.
Not sure if I've made sense. I feel a bit 'fake' being on a divorce busting website. I lurked on a verbal abuse website for ages but that just didn't sit right for where our relationship was. I was hoping that I could find a home here but I'm not sure if my sitch means I'll still be welcomed if I say I want out.
