Oh, MK. I feel for you, I do. I know what you mean about wondering if we can find another "soul mate". I'm sure I can find someone and feel "in love", but I want something lasting. I don't want to be here again after another 5 year R.
I think the trick, no matter what, is to work on our own personal healing. When we become truly whole, we will not depend on an R for our happiness. When that happens, we can open ourselves up for a truly healthy R. When that happens, we will truly detach from our H's without disdain.
If you figure out how to accomplish this, please fill me in. I got the idea, but not the technique. Go figure.
An ex-employer used to say "Life is the most efficient, yet unconventional, teacher. It tests you first, then teaches you the lesson."
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9