I'm still not convinced, but it was definitely a nicer thing to hear than "I don't want to be with you"!
And by the way, that conversation that he wanted to get back to? I asked, and it apparently wasn't the one about whether or not it's okay to sleep with someone who's married, but rather the one where I claimed never to notice anyone interested in me because I was so very, very married. It just didn't register. He laughed and said, "And you were so serious about it!"
I had a hard time figuring out how to respond to the text, so said something like, wow, that was really lovely and very flattering, thank you. Haven't heard anything since.
How am I doing? Okay. I'm a little irritated with H and his scheduling. Today he said he's not coming home (which I already knew), that he had open houses from 5 to 8. I said, "Oh, so you'll be home after that?" thinking I might go out. He said, no, he wasn't planning to be.
I said, well, maybe tomorrow night I could do something, and he said he had a place to see at 6, and after that he didn't know what his plans were. Hello? I just said, well, if it's one place at 6 it sounds like you could make it home early enough for me to have some time. So we'll see.
And I left my brand-new, $650 camera at the park today, praying one of our group picked it up after I left. That bites.
But in general, okay. Even after all our talks, H speaks so little and relatively coolly to me, and it brings me down sometimes. Good reason to speak little to H. I'm hoping he finds something soon.
Note to self: spend more time with people who seem to like being with me and less thinking about H and how he doesn't.
