I've been panic'ing for years. Probably even before we got married. Totally conditioned by her. Every time we have a major fight she always threatened to leave. I'm really trying, but it's hard. Like last night she threatened lawyers, which really made me mad. Especially when she said we do not ever want to go down this road. When she gets angry she says things that just pushes my buttons.
The thing is, when I calm down I forgive her. I let things go. No matter what I love her and I can't be mad at her forever. For her, she's been storing them up for years.... I just don't get it. Why can't some people just let things go. I guess if she end up with somebody else, I wish whomever that is luck. I doubt many people would be as "patient" with her anger.
I'm not so happy with her T. Instead of encourage her to be patient and see how things progress because it takes time to heal, she pushed her for resolution so now she can go out and date. The T has never been married and has no kids, I just don't think she has a clue what kind of pain the family goes through with something like this.
I have a little hope for Retro, but I don't want to set myself up for disappointment again. She said so her self at the moment the door is closed, but no one knows what the future holds.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
