I'm taking the beating stick off your hands, stop blaming yourself!! just this morning I thought to myself "i'm trying so hard to be a great wife so my H could love me, heck, he has to love me for who I am, flails and all, I won't costume cut myself to his liking, this is who I am, I have changed and try everyday to be a loving person, but I won't bend all out of shape just so he can like me."
I love my H, but he's a new person now, I"m trying to love this new person and it is proving to be a bit hard, not used to who he is now..HE isnt' used to what he is now, so it is difficult to try to accept a person who is still reinventing himself.

Set yourself free, you aren't responsible for his desicions, you stuck to him through the worse, when he hurt you and was in not wasy a person to love yet you loved him, I think you deserve the same courtesy, remember that.


Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.