yeah, h knows that the kids need him $ wise, and a certain amount of time wise, but he figures he's well covered with things as they are now. and don't forget, kids are resilient...he truly believes none of this really affects them at all.
I have a lot of wishes for things being different, but hey, it is what it is, and I have to meet it head on. I'm feeling a bit better...finding my feet. isn't changing the train wreck that is coming, but its changing how I react to it, hopefully. I'm going to treat saturday as an informational meeting, as opposed to one that should see any resolutions. H likely has a very different agenda....quite likely he has the whole thing worked out, whether its about getting his own place or fully going the divorce route. doesn't mean I have to agree to anything right then and there...hopefully. I need to keep saying it in my head, that I am allowed to have time to process this and get back to him.
again, time will tell. only a couple of days to go.
heading to therapy this morning. will see if th has anything else that can help me prepare/feel ready for whatever is coming.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
