Thank you to everyone for replying. And saffie for reading the blog, too. I must go to work now - another funfilled 12 hours away from home and family - but will try to get by tonight.
On a positive note, H came to bed late yet made sure to be touching me all night, legs or hands. NOT happened in eons, that kind of purposeful thing. This small thing is enormous encouragement to my heart, even if it means nothing, it gave me hope to get up today.
Theo, you're right. As always. Thanks.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3