Hurdles and pressing forward......

[Between Tears]

It seems I failed to mention the best part of all of this...

I now have to pay child support for S... yup, $531 per month.... which is just $20 less than one of my bi-monthly paychecks. Oh sure, Dick will pay $531 a month also.... out of his paycheck, which his paycheck is closer to $10,000/month. Once again, just before I take the leap of purchasing us a home, I am cut down below the income needed to be approved for the mortgage... which will void my rental agreement, which will have D and I homeless by December 1st. I can no longer afford to make the repairs needed to make this home qualify for a mortgage, for now I have less than $300/month to purchase groceries, gasoline, clothing, vehicle maintenance and insurance, entertainment, animal food, pay doctor bills, dental bills and make the necessary repairs to this house......

Does anyone else have an idea of what Dick's next move is going to be?

I once thought the object of support was to maintain the children's quality of life prior to divorce.... but it seems that here, in Kansas, those ideals don't apply.

Angry? Yes, I am.... but I won't become bitter. I'm still waiting for the rainbows that was to follow this storm.... but it seems that I will be better off giving up on those hopes and dreams too.

Well, off to work I go.... which I know I need to find another job,. In order to get the money I'll need to "right" the situation will mean that I will have to drive at least 50 or 60 miles a day in order to obtain something that we can live on.... but as soon as I do, Dick will come in to scoop up more child support. Cycles.... Lord, I hate it, all I want is my life back.